Anxiety is there 365 days of the year. It’s the devil that never leaves, the friend I wish I never would have met.
Anxiety is always there. You may have your better days; the days where you feel like you have conquered it. You may even tell yourself “It’s gone, I did it.” but then there’s a trigger. A trigger that sets it off. Suddenly you can’t breathe, your chest gets super tight, every sound in the room amplifies to a thousand and, to you, every one is screaming. You try to hide it, you try to hide the fact that it feels like your suffocating or having a heart attack. You may even question yourself whether you are having a heart attack because there’s no way your chest can hurt this bad from “just” anxiety. This feeling can turn into anger or instant tears. On the hard days it turns into helplessness when you live with this feeling in your chest. ALL. DAY.
People look at you and they would never think you’re the one struggling with anxiety. You have what people see as a perfect life, you are accomplishing your goals and dreams, you are HAPPY.
So you think, why? Why am I like this? What is wrong with me?
But the thing is you didn’t choose to have anxiety. You don’t choose to have the thoughts and feelings you do, anxiety does. Anxiety is silent but deadly. It’s easy to hide, easy to cover up, but it’s not easy to live with and it’s definitely not easy to manage. The person you think would never have anxiety, who is always smiling, laughing, and appears to be “happy” may be suffering. They may need a shoulder to cry on, may need to be told you love them, may need help but they’re to scared or ashamed to ask for it.
Anxiety is there 365 days of the year. It never leaves.
It’s the holiday season so you think “it will get better” but it doesn’t improve at all. Anxiety is there. The various Christmas parties with tons of people, the holiday get together’s, the over crowded malls.. the moments you want to enjoy. These turn into triggers.. and anxiety is there. The crowds, people, and small talk conversations make you anxious. You are constantly thinking about what these people around you are thinking and then comes the resting bitch face. The face you know you make but can’t help not making it. The face you put on to make yourself seem put together, seem strong, but people take it the wrong way. The holidays don’t help because anxiety is there 365 days of the year.
Anybody can suffer from anxiety – it doesn’t matter how much money you have, how nice of a house you have, how many kids you have, what type of family you have, whether your male or female, what age you are, or even what type of support you have. Most importantly, a person can be truly happy but still suffer from anxiety every. single. day. It doesn’t matter how happy someone is or whether it’s January, March, September or December because… Anxiety is there 365 days of the year.